Hoping that everyone is as well as they can possibly be in this moment. I have not been around again, as per usual. This time due to the fact that my mother was diagnosed with stage four cancer on this past June 4, 2014. She was diagnosed with the endometrial cancer that has spread to the stomach and lungs. They gave her a "chemo cocktail" that consists of two parts, administered via IV drip. The first part is "Carboplatin" and the second part is "Taxol". The first bag takes four hours to administer and the second takes 8 hours. She had two treatments and they did a cat scan of her torso and it showed that the lungs were completely clear of it now.
The doctor keeps getting all excited, hugging her, telling her.. that, we know this is not "curable".. yet, that, he has never seen it work like this. And then turns around and says to keep letting her have whatever she wants to eat or whatever like this.. He sounds contradicting. Anyway, he also said at the time, that it looked as though her uterus had shrunken down. He was hoping to knock it back from the lungs and stomach, the uterus, and then remove the uterus and do another 1 or 2 treatments, to be sure he got rid of it. However, he mentioned nothing of the condition of her stomach.. and then ordered a fourth chemo, which she will get this coming Saturday.. August 30th, 2014.
He will probably order another scan of her torso to see what things look like again. My concern lies in that he has made no mention of the condition of her stomach, and is talking about removing her uterus, yet, if they cut her stomach open, to remove it, and there is still cancer in her stomach, then, it could cause the stomach cancer to spread. My aunt is taking her to the doctor before this next chemo and asking about this. We were discussing it and my aunt says she will be sure to ask. The first two treatments she took very well, yet this third one did not go so well, she has been really sick and ill feeling with this last one.. I hope she can get her strength back up for this next one in 5 days..
Anyway, I hope all of this works out for the best, I am trying to remain positive, and trying to keep living life as normally as I always have, especially around my mom, and trying to be positive around her, trying to keep her from getting depressed. I am simply spending a lot of time focused on her and her illness and treatment agenda, thus not leaving me much time for anything else, except priorities (bills, shopping, errands.. etc) All of my other time is spent with her in the event she needs something and is not well.
I hope she gets well and I hope to be able to catch up with everyone again soon.. Life is always so consuming of our time, well, mine anyway.. Time is never on my side.. Hope to catch up again soon.
Take special care.. until next time.. *hugs & love* @}--`--,--'-------
How have all of you been? I hope that life has been treating you as well as it possibly can, in this moment, and in the recent past..
I've really been missing all of my friends here on Deviantart! __________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________
Once again, I've not been around much, nothing new. Life always seems to consume me. Inspiration is, and has been, always, there..
It is simply a matter of time.. not ever being on my side. I plan to try to create more works again soon, and to practice a bit more with my photography now that Spring is here and the weather is pleasant again. However, it IS a matter of time. Crossing my fingers that time will be a bit more on my side, in the very near future. I am taking whatever time that I can though, and using it to create and practice photography, every chance that I get.
I am so far behind on here, and there are many of you that I've not been able to stay in contact with, that, I hope to get back in touch with again. I'll try to come around here more often, to check in on everyone's galleries again.
My apologies for not having been around, however, I am certain that I will have much to look forward to now that I am coming back around again, everything that all of you have been creating since I have been away again.. for SO, SO long.
For what seems like.. Forever..
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輪郭 Rinkaku (ie; contours, outlines) Eternal Slumber Remix by "Dir En Grey"
Lyrics are in Japanese, however, they have broken the language barrier with their music and vocals, across the globe.. I love this band, it's my favorite these days..
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Kyo 京 Vocals of Dir en Grey
© ikreate 2014 ® Katy Aretxabaleta 2014. All Rights Reserved.
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I want to go to Narnia, yet every time I go into my closet, I fail to get in..
Hmmm.. Kiki says I just need to keep looking for the portal and fight off a few fauns and I'm in!! 
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Sometimes.. I Can't Remember. Was it me? How Did I Feel?
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Dir en Grey Music Awards 2012
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They won the 2012 Extreme Metal Olympics Award!!!! Against a total of 32 Bands and numerous competitions against various Metal bands both new and renowned, from all over the wold.. it is because.. They are one of the most amazing bands.. EVER!
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An Open Letter From Dir en Grey ~ Scream 4 The Truth:
Please view the letter below and if you wish to show your support in their endeavor to obtain the truth from their government as to what the radiation levels really are in their country. Simply click the "[link]" above the letter below to obtain more information as to how you can support the people of Japan in finding the truth. They are not being told the truth, and the need to know the truth, in order to know what it is they are facing in their futures. Please feel free to save this letter and link it to their page in order to pass this on in an effort to gain more support for the people of Japan.
Thank you ever so much for viewing "www.facebook.com/notes/a-knot-…"
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Featured in CG Gallery/It's Art Mag's 24 Hour Top Pictures on 10.30.11.. Thank you ever so much! I'm honored!
katy.itsartmag.com/story.php?t…
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*Phoenix Rising*
Featured on July 10, 2010 in SLAM Art Magazine. I Thank SLAM Art Mag, Its' Creator and all of their Admin's for the interview and time and support. I Thank all of the Sponsors as well for their contributions to the Mag, to keep it going in support of the Artist
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I DO WANT TO THANK ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE FAVED AND COMMENTED TO MY WORKS, I HAVE BEEN REALLY BUSY AND I STILL
AM, YET I WILL REPLY TO YOU THE VERY MOMENT I AM BACK ON HERE, I WILL ALSO BE BY TO CHECK THE GALLERY AND WORKS OF THOSE
OF YOU WHO REALLY WATCH MY GALLERY AND FOLLOW MY WORKS. I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME AND EFFORTS AND INTEREST
IN MY WORKS. I REALLY DO APPRECIATE IT AND WILL ALWAYS RECIPROCATE AND DO YOU THE SAME HONOR AS WELL *HUGE HUGS* TO
THOSE OF YOU WHO DO OFFER YOUR SUPPORT
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Some Amateur shots taken with a small personal digital camera. Some of my most Favorite Musicians
Apocalyptica and Dir en Grey 
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Just found out that Dir en Grey is coming back through the states after finishing up their European leg of the tour. I saw them 8/10 a year ago in St. Louis, and now in December I'll be heading back to Chicago where I just saw CoF this past March to see Dir en Grey again as they come back through the states. I'm super psyched and I cannot wait to see them perform again, as last time was only the first time to see them. Also last time, I found out about the concert only 4 days prior to the concert and the VIP's were sold out, I'm hoping this time to be able to get them as it's still so soon before the concert.. crossing my fingers
So Sorry if I have not replied to any comments, faves, or watches.. Believe me, it is appreciated, more than you know. It is merely because I have been extremely busy with life, reality and priorities. I assure that you have not been forgotten. I will reply as soon as I have some spare time to do so. I've been so out of it..
Meanwhile Autumn is approaching and encroaching my time as well. I will be anxious to break out my camera, thus consuming the time I would normally be online. Yet I will start replying now and make my way through my messages as life will allot me the time to do so..
I hope that life is treating all of you well. Please take care and I hope to catch up very soon with all of you..
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Carpe mecum sempiterne noctem!! +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
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Alright, so I was really getting into this movie and I'm listening to the music/OST while watching it, knowing the bits of music were familiar, and I was almost sure of who it was.. I was proved to be correct when at the end of the movie, during the credits, they started playing *Clever Sleazoid* the soundtrack songs of Dir en Greys' *MACABRE*. This movie may not be for everyone, yet I myself, personally, LOVED this movie.. I can't believe I had not seen it yet being the movie fanatic that I am. Especially these sort of movies. I highly recommend this to people who are fans of this sort of movie. And of course, the music rocks!
HERE IS A SYNOPSIS OF THE MOVIE FROM WIKIPEDIA:
Death Trance is a 2005 Japanese action/fantasy film directed by Yuji Shimomura, the action director for Versus and Devil May Cry 3. It stars Tak Sakaguchi of Versus fame as the anti-hero with co-stars Kentaro Seagal (the son of Steven Seagal in his action film debut) and Takamasa Suga. The film is the directorial debut of Shimomura, and similarities can be seen between it and Ryuhei Kitamura's Versus. Both films, among other things, take place primarily in a forest, both involve a dark sword bearing antihero played by Tak Sakaguchi battling a supernatural being. The soundtrack features songs by the rock band Dir en grey.
[edit] Synopsis
In an unknown place and unknown time, a master swordsman by the name of Grave (Tak Sakaguchi) searches for the ultimate battle. After hearing tales of a mysterious coffin kept and guarded at the Tougan Temple he decides to steal it. Legend has it that if taken to a specific spot in the desert, the coffin will grant any man's deepest desire. However, others say that inside the coffin rests the Goddess of Destruction who was banished from Heaven for trying to destroy the world and that releasing her will bring about the Apocalypse. A young monk from the Tougan Temple (Takamasa Suga) is sent to retrieve the coffin and prevent it from being opened. But many other forces are also searching for Grave and his prize (both human and not) and an all-out free-for-all ensues as they all struggle to discover the secret power of the coffin. CHECK IT OUT!!
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"In everyone's life, at some time, our inner fire goes out. It is then burst into flame by an encounter with another human being. We should all be thankful for those people who rekindle the inner spirit."
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Emilie Autumn photos, more Cradle photos, and Artworks on the way... Both of my computers [Desktops] power supply had conveniently went out at the very same time. Of course, I fixed the one with the better Graphics cards first. However, the one with all of the recent photos I had taken of Cradle is still down.. I will be picking it up within the next week or so and hooking it back up and will continue to post more of those photos. Meanwhile, I have the Emilie photos on the SD cards still and will sort through them and post some of those. I'll also be working on some Digital/Mixed Media/Photo-Manipulation & Traditional Artworks as well.
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PLEASE FEEL FREE TO VIEW, COMMENT, CRITIQUE & FAVE MY WORKS ALSO.. IT'S TRUE.. I ENJOY IT & LOVE IT AS WELL
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I went to see Cradle of Filth yesterday in Chicago and it was really freaking cold there! I left 70 degree temps and headed into rain and temperatures right at freezing. I'm back home now, I arrived back home this afternoon, crashed out for the rest of the afternoon and evening and now I'm sifting through the concert photos. It was an unforgettable and most memorable concert!! However, it was really hard to get photos with being moshed and squashed and with crowd surfers coming over my head and security kept getting in front of the camera to catch them LOL It was pure madness!! Insane!! However, I loved every minute of it!! The House of Blues is a really nice venue, the Bands sounded really great. I Loved all of their performances, Daniel Lioneye, Nachtmytstium and Turisas rocked the house as well. I have absolutely no regrets and I'm so glad that I went. I was cabbing it everywhere and after the concert, I only had about 5 hours to leave back to St.Louis, thus I stayed up the entire night, watching the outer limits on the big screen and viewing the photos on my camera, waiting to board and come home. Cradle gave us a most excellent performance! Chicago rocked! Can't wait to see them again, hopefully after their upcoming Symphonic works they will tour again. I cannot wait to visit Chicago again, loved the people and the atmosphere! Reminds me a lot of New York in some ways.
Now awaiting Emilie Autumn on March 11th, which will be an Excellent show as well, I'm sure of it! 
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I'm psyching up for Cradle of Filths' upcoming American Tour. They say its going to be a huge one. Although, they are also saying they had been banned in some states, which I do not know why, they are storytellers, great ones, and people take what they say in their *stories* [songs] and personally apply it to the Band. The ignoramus who are banning them misunderstand/fear what they are ignorant and have no knowledge of, if they knew anything about them, they would not be banning them. I'm so going to be there, wherever, at any cost, hopefully with VIP/Meet & Greet Tix. I just pre-ordered the 2CD Digi + Shirt of "Darkly, Darkly Venus Aversa". I'm anxiously awaiting it's arrival! I've seen the video from the new release titled *Forgive Me Father [I have sinned] and it's awesome! I also downloaded the free .mp3 of the of the track titled "Lilith Immaculate" from their official website, the songs are stuck in my head and keep looping through my mind. The cover art by "Natalie Shau" aka "Blue Black" aka "Cry Baby" [One of my most favorite Artists and Models] is Amazing as well" ♥ xox
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Where you can find me working, collaborating and hanging out for the pleasure of it all:
KJAretxabaleta on Advanced Photoshop for Professionals
It'sArt Mag/CG Gallery
CG Gallery/CG Talk
ikreate on Deviantart
Myspace
Cradle of Filth
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German-Gothic-Radio.de ~ The NEXT generation!!! 
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Looking Forward To..
Update:
I'm working on a piece at the moment. I'm trying to create, even though I have had little inspiration as of recently. Yet I hope that some of you might still be able to appreciate what I am creating.